BIRTH STORY PART 3 - being in hospital
Friday/Saturday I couldn’t even speak being in so much pain and getting a side effect from surgery called sectio shoulder, that hurts like hell, resulting in me sitting up sleeping for a few hours putting strain on my c-section scar.
That resulted in a bleeding from the scar which the nurse managed to control. But on top of having to try and walk around so soon after surgery, to avoid blood clots and dealing with not being able to sleep, I never thought I would survive Saturday.
I ugly cried a few times before getting more morphine 😭
The gas in the intestines make your belly so big, I still looked 7 months pregnant. And it is so painful.
It did help a little bit wearing comfortable undies from momkind.dk instead of the horrible hospital knickers they give you. Gotta look a the positives 😉
Sunday was better as I manged to get on top of my pain meds before ending in incontrollable pain.
Sunday night at 4AM my nipples started bleeding after trying to nurse the baby… it took me back to last time and I was so scared to get an infection again.
This was the day I was supposed to go home, but after weighing baby, they realised she had lost more than 10% body weight and wasn’t getting enough food.
She was drowsy and hard to wake up.
So the nurses at the sensitive mothers ward have created a new plan for us and we are working towards her gaining enough weight for us to go home. It includes lots of skin to skin and a strict feeding schedule.
And in the mean time I’ll be using my medela_scandinavia breast pump and shields, so my nipples can heal and my milk production can be stimulated.
For now we stay a little longer and do whatever it takes for her to feel good ❤️
Motherhood is beautiful but also very tough.
Double tab if you can relate to that!
To be continued…
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#breastfeedingproblems #momkind #medelabreastpump #thisispostpartum #realmotherhood #4thtrimester #csectionrecovery #ootd 😂
Sådan her føltes det 12 timer efter fødslen af andet barn.
Styrke. Lettelse. Forløsning.
De følelser har jeg brug for at huske på idag - idag kan jeg nemlig mærke følelsen af overvældelse og oveni har jeg skulle kæmpe endnu en kamp, da kirkekontoret har ringet og ikke vil registrere eller navngive Falke uden min adoptionsbevilling (tjek story).
Der har været så sindsygt mange kampe siden jeg, i oktober, så de to streger og blev ramt af lykke og forventningsglæde.
Hyperemesis. Lavt blodtryk. Rona. Roskildesyge. Indlæggelser. Isolation.
Det gør sgu lidt ondt at tænke på idag, hvor hovedet udmattet af babyblues, har svært ved ikke at kredse om alt det svære.
Så tænker jeg på i fredags og på alle kampene op til og husker, at jeg kom igennem det hele.
At nu går jeg faktisk ud i haven med min søn i viklen, en kop kaffe i hånden og kigger på Martin og Rose lege - præcis som jeg drømte om.
Jeg klarede det.
Jeg f***ing klarer det.
Før, nu og i fremtiden.
Hovedet kan hurtigt vende tingene på hovedet og fortælle os, at vi er svage eller skadede pga. vores kampe og nedture. Men det er en fejl.
Det er netop vores nedture og kampe der gør os stærke.
#mentalsund #babyblues #fødsel #graviditet #barsel #bedrebarsel #adoption #psyken #morliv #forældreliv #mortilto